「你可以搭XXX Rampur bus去。」我沒聽得懂。
That night when I came back to Shimla form Chandigarh, it was already 10:30PM, 1.5hrs late than it was predicted. The last bus to Sanjauli has already left 1.5 hrs ago, I didn’t have any other ideas, so I took the last 100Rs bill from my wallet as my last chance, ready to go downstairs to take the taxi back to my home, but I was still unwilling to give up, so I randomly asked a guy who sit next to me, whether it really had no any other chance to go back by bus.
” Excuse me, do there have any bus go to Sanjauli now? ” I asked. “Yes, you can take XXX bus to Rampur now.” He answered me, but I didn’t really get it.
He lift his bag up and looked at me, ” I’m going to Sanjauli right now as well, come with me.” He said. He took me to the bus which is going to Rampur, I just realized there is no rules exist in India, you could just get on any bus even if you didn’t buy any ticket before. I was chatting with this guy, his English was quite well, he asked me where I came from, and what did I do here. “ I come from Taiwan, and work in an NGO here.” I replied.
“ Alright.” Then he asked me whether I like India or not, and what do Taiwanese people think about India, “Everything is much better here than I was thinking before, people are nice, and the food as well, but in Taiwan, there are some negative news about India…” I paused a while, and shyly continue saying “ for example, the news about sexual assault…” “Bull shit !” He said he felt so sorry about this thing, with his blush face.
But than after 3 mins, he started to ask me the SAME question, asking me where , I came from and what did I do here, at the same time the bus finally came, I quickly got on the bus, and started to feel scary, that time I wasn’t sure whether the guy understood what I was talking about or not.
And worse of all, this bus finally stopped at the bus stop which without any street light here, it was so dark, and the place wasn’t the one I was familiar before. Fortunately, there was the other passenger got off the bus as well, with his large luggage, I chose to follow the guy closer while this guy still asked me some question about my job, I didn’t really concentrate in what he was asking anymore, I felt scared, the bad images started to show up in my mind, the only thing I expected was go back to my home as soon as possible.
“ I am a normal citizen of India, living in a very normal life, doing the small things here, and you are the girl who is so brave to some to my country alone, doing the things which is much bigger than what I’m doing now.” He talked to me. “ I love the courage of your coming to India, thank you for coming to my country.”
After saying goodbye, I was standing at the same place, watching his back leaving me, further and further. At that moment I can’t do anything but hate myself, I wonder when I will totally throw away all the bias about India and start to embrace the people who is willing to help me when I fall into difficulty.
Thank you uncle, you are just the one I need to be thankful for. No matter which gender you are, everyone should have conscious of being safe wherever we go, but it doesn’t mean we have to keep having an unnecessary bias of a country.
Story @ Shimla 2016.11.21